When I was thinking about this challenge, it wasn’t hard for me to choose a book. My head has been stuck in this book ever since the day I picked it up. I read it in a couple days. Not only were those the best 2 reading days in my life but, it set me for a world of hurt because how much I can relate to the main character in this book. If you have anxiety issues, and have a hard time coping with them, I really recommend this book to you. It just opened my eyes up big time.
So, the person I can relate and connect to a lot from this book is, of course Eliza herself. The way she goes through not only the everyday stress of being a high school student with anxiety, and depression. Then she has the feeling like she can never get along with her family. None of them understand one another. The feeling of maybe she will never be able to relate or get along with her younger twin brother with the fact that they are all sports savvy whilst, she is more of staying indoors. While she has her own little hidden persona, she never realizes one of her brothers also has his own hidden self.
The way I relate to this everyday life of Eliza is with the fact, I keep myself hidden from others in my family. My sister and I share the same interests but, I don’t think we will ever get along the way we used to when I was younger. When it becomes a chore to get family to spend time with you then, I start to think about what I could have done wrong and why does my sister not want to hangout with me. It’s very heartbreaking to me.
On the flipside, Eliza has her hidden persona where she creates this amazing graphic novel. No one knows the real her and she is one of the most popular internet sensations. When I go to work, I’m in my own different body. I’m a different person who is more confident and can speak up more. Instead of being around others outside of work friends, I get pulled into my shell. At work, I just put all my pain and anxiety behind me. Get my ass in gear and people look at me in a way I never thought they would.
Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I will have my days at work when my jar will just explode and my depression, and anxiety take over. Honestly, that’s where friends come in handy. I’ve cried on a coworkers shoulder before because so could handle anything. In was a mess but she was there for me.
My word of advice for Eliza would have been to try so much harder to open up with your siblings and try to talk to people so you don’t feel like you are just in a ball, by your lonesome. It should never be that way. I know it’s harder than it seems but, the only person stopping you from growing is yourself.
Happy Reading, Emma